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Halle
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Hello. My name is Halle, but you can me Halberry (because I am obsessed with Blackberry smartphones ), Stella, Stell or just Stelloria, if you'd like :] Even though my account has been around for a while, I feel so new to everything! Hopefully I'll make a few friends along the way, yes?

**The profile picture was drawn by me.

Programs;;
Paint tool SAI.
Autodesk Sketchbook Express.


Tools;;
Wacom Bamboo Connect Tablet


Wacom Stamp by bigfunkychiken Autodesk Stamp by AliasMyself EasyPaintToolSAI User Stamp by ClefairyKid
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I think it's time. Time for me to deactivate my deviant art account.
I just.. I do not feel right. I've only been here for at least a month, and I'm already ready to quit. I'm such a wuss, aren't I? I never truly discovered the wonders of dA and I'm already ready to go bye-bye.
I feel like every flipping thing I draw is complete and utter shit!
EVERYTHING.
And the fact that I post them online for everyone else to see drives me insane. I start panicking, knowing that my mediocre drawings will just go unnoticed as usual,
I tend to to get emotional everytime I post something on dA pertaining to art. I do not do it for popularity, not at all, but I.. I just can't handle my anxiety when it comes to strangers all over the world who would shed even one small glance at my stupid, HORRIBLE, anatomically incorrect art. I did fine without dA and only drew for the sake of myself. I would often show my work to my friends, if anything. But now that I have a dA, and I submit most of my work on here, I just feel so unclean, like I've committed a crime and I'll have to face the consequences. Compared to a majority of the artists on here, I have no talent what so ever, and I often think I do not deserve to have a dA.
When I first got my dA account a month ago, I had 16 deviations. I posted my deviations feeling quite proud, but then... I felt so insecure nearly a few weeks later. Like, I was blinding everyone's eyes with my - once again - shitty artwork.
One day I was browsing through my gallery for the fun of it, and I saw some of my work which I found to be very ugly and terrible in terms of shading, anatomy, and overall quality. You know what I did? I deleted most of them, and I ended up with 10 deviations. Words cannot describe how much anger, sadness and disappointment was welling up inside me.
A week later I did the EXACT same thing. Uploaded some more work, then deleted them due to me finding some terrible, unfortunate drawing mistakes that I didn't want anyone to even look at. My insecure nature took over and wiped the art right off my gallery. I will never upload those EVER again. I just can't.  My creativity level isn't as active as it used to be when I was a young girl. I can't even bare to look at my drawings without cringing. Whenever I look at someone else's artwork, whether they are skilled or unskilled, I feel discouraged. I feel like I wouldn't be able to put that much effort into my work and get the same overall quality. I often hate myself for even drawing, but in the near future I'd like to become an animator. Drawing is all I have...
Not only that, But I feel like I'm limiting myself to drawing the crap that I usually draw. I feel like an idiot. I feel left out..
Where's the talent?
I don't have any..
No amount of practice is going to get me ANYWHERE!!
Because I literally fail at everything.
I just want to leave dA and never come back!
Because I don't belong here, and my art would never be appreciated here.

By tomorrow I will make up my mind whether or not I'll leave dA. Although, I'm 99.9% sure I'm leaving. Forever. I just need some time to think and clear my thoughts.
I typed  this rant to alert any of my watchers, who care enough to even look at this, and also who I think don't deserve to waste their time on an untalented person such as myself. A lot of you must have your inboxes flooded, so I understand if you didn't want to read this block of silly text.
I'm sorry..

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Revereiia Jul 9, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
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Tag, quality deviant, you’re it! Quality doesn't mean that you have a lot of followers, or a lot of messages. It means that you’re nice to other people, and you deserve to be happy. If you get this message, someone is telling you that they love you as you are, and they don’t care how much followers you have. Send this to 10 deviants who deserve it. If you break the chain, nothing will happen. But it’s just good to let someone know that you love them!
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VerticalForklift Apr 26, 2013   Digital Artist
Thank you so much for watching! ;v; /
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Revereiia Mar 21, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU BEAUTIFUL CREATURE YOU //spams with love
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PlagueBearerBJD Feb 26, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
thank you for the support!!
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Thanks for the fave^^
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Thelene Feb 23, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
Thank you for the fav :D:D
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Revereiia Feb 17, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Tehe, tag you're it~ [link]
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:iconmiriel3:
Thank you so much :bow:
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:iconhana-miketsukami:
Thanks for the Fave :iconchuuplz:
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:iconyueyuki:
Hey!
I'm so late but thanks a lot for the watch! I appreciate a lot! :hug:
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